“Is he alone who has courage on his right hand and faith on his left hand?”

CF-18 Crashed.

I saw this on the news about 3 days back.

The pilot survived it's an amazing feat that he was able to escape although engine shutdown during a manoeuvre at 10m above ground.

Food for thought

What if he decided not to pull, the ending will be totally different. Or even when the engines starts to rattle, he shut down both engines and commence a glide descend? Could the ending be better?

Read me.

Finally, something apart from work!

My favourite animal from now on!! Wombat!

This little cute thing has extremely low metabolism, an average of 14 days for a complete digestion. On top of all, they can enter BANKAI mode and run up to 40km/h!

I'm coming home in about a week. Count me in for celebrations!

I wanna go home!

The point of no confidence.

Have you come to a point such that you are deemed to be the best, yet you think you are not up to it?

Here's my story. I've been cocking up so much for my past 2 flights that my instructors is beginning to think that I can't fly for nuts sake. Forgetting to conduct checks and busting flap limits, these grave mistake could have put me into a dangerous situation if I were in a real higher rated planes.

Hey alvin, yes it's only you, 1 person left in this thing. But that doesn't mean you have to be any less demoralised by it. Remember the times when you were young, those time when you were left alone by friends. When you stood up from your academics, trained yourself up for any type of athletics or even stand up to those cruelty you've experienced? Who were there for you? None, and it's likewise in this situation. You no need anyone to be here for you, it's history we are replaying now, not even family or friends.

Pull yourself together and be at your highest moral.

I believe in you. I believe in your ability cause I've lived with you so long, I understand how you work, how you think and how you are so easily affected by the very little minute details of how people around you behave. Stand alone for once, smile a little more.

Do your parents proud, do yourself a greater deed and for the sake of your future wife, you are always loved =). Go ahead and fly, cowboy.

I will always love you.

DeArest diary

It has been quite an emotional week for many of us here at this town. Many friends around me will be departing back to sg soon and that leaves only the 3 of the lonely souls down here. It is unbearable when you see them put in so much effort yet unable to meet the mark. This system is too cruel to begin with. With a steep learning curve and stressful environment, we are expected to do almost the impossible. Now I know how precious my space is and all the more I should not let them down. Their effort spent here will not go to waste just like that. I'll show some results by the end of the day.

I should really drain all these negative energy away from me by the start of next week. It's down to the very last 5 and self-procrastination is not an option. Got to enter that cockpit with all the hype and joy I have left.

The confusion.
Earlier this Afternoon, I had doubts. Questions like what if I did succeed, will my life be as fruitful and promising as what the recruiters and people around me had recognised. There was this sudden conversation we had that actually made me reconsider my choice. But no more =). After hearing my instructor's lifetime stories, I know this is the perfect job made on earth, for me. It might not be as luxurious and comfortable as most deem it to be but it's a challenging adventure awaiting to be unfold. I must keep a constant vigilence from this point onwards, for if otherwise I am just toying with my own life. Keep learning and do the right thing =). Stay alive!

"The best thing in life is loneliness. Becasue it teaches you everything and when you loose it, you get everything."

oh yah. And don't be scared away if you see me chatting with your more often, I'll be needing more company in the subsequent weeks. Not like I'm showing gay tendency or anything. :P

Tomorrow's the day. =)

Nothing to loose, everything to give.

Were there times when you had too much fun that you actually forgot where you were heading and what you had set out to do? In simple terms, it means that you forgot your objective or why you are at this stage of life?

The last 2 flying happened to be my worst flights. I was always behind my aircraft, doing the wrong things to remedy and maintain the accuracy of everything. In short, they are screw ups and careless mistakes could have made a world of difference. My coordination and thought process have to get better in the quickest possible time or I'll be chopped.

I lost my momentum, the ones I once had in the beginning. I lost my motivation, the drive that I really need for next Monday. Fortunately, what I have now is... TIME =).

So I'm spending this 'time' on this blog recounting my thoughts to why am I here in the first place.

For starters, I'm here for serious business. For a job I have ALWAYSSSS wanted, dream and do anything for. Yes, desperado's haunting me. I'm not here for the fun, for the weather, girls, for the beauty of flying, for the attention I get and definitely NOT for the money. So get down to earth and drive the damn thing to accuracy you idiot, unresponsive brains.

You are more than that and definitely better than just THAT. It's not a gift or a mandatory policy that I am here. It's a privilege given to me to prove myself. Best of all, I'm paid and sent overseas at such a luxurious environment to prove myself.

Come on Alvin. Meet the demands, earn your wages well. Live life to the fullest. Play hard and work even harder.

Tomorrow will be a better sortie. I promise.

Hello world.

It's been quite a week and I'm still alive.

This beginning phase of flight is stressful and taxing, high expectations coupled with steep learning curves. It's cruel place where people are marked whether the meet the mark or if not .. chopped.

Close course mates around you get chopped, it really affects the momentum and mood of everything. Motivation crumbles when we've one less person to walk together with us.

Flying is really fun. Both visually and sensationally, more than just intriguing and excitement.

However, upon coming down the plane, the feeling is exactly the same as sitting through 3 consecutive maths paper - exhausted and thoughtless. A brain juices killing sensation.

I'm beginning to understand why

the cloud cries.

rainbow smiles in different colours.

wind twirls in excitement.

the reason why the birds sing.

and why god create earth in its best nature...

If it comes, it is fate and destine. But if it's not meant to be, then god always have better plans ahead. Put in my best and the lord will do the rest. Faith.