I can't stop thinking about u.

Xmas

Greetings Earthlings!

It's been long since I was able to talk lightheartedly and able to smile naturally without being shouted at or being reprimanded. I had 10 days of Christmas and a beautiful finale which stays as an special episode of this year, something that makes me scared but I would hold closely to.

In these 10 days, I learnt a new sport, catch up with all my close cliques, ate all sorts of exotic food, fought the sleepless nights, watched crazy Xmas, had a very sweet Christmas and a lovely, unforgettable company.
I've changed for the better because of you =). I realised during this short break trip that infact I have been really fortunate, one of better jobs around the place with apt payslip (though a poor life), one that is noble and fulfilling. Accepting this fate is hard but giving up will be harder. So thank you for the best present of happiness, I'll be counting more of my blessings than seeing things I do not have. =)

Merry Christmas everyone! Recommend all chaps this movie titled 12 dates of Christmas, watch it to believe yourself. Cheers!

When the heart stops beating

One of the hardest fall I had..

To be honest to the whole wide world, my heart stopped beating since I stepped here. It isn't like the excitement I get when I watched people on the court playing basketball, when I see the racing canoes, when I see people wind surf.

My heart stopped beating for any girl. Stopped beating for politics. Stopped beating for any purpose in life.
I'm truly sorry to myself. I was heartbroken when before I came here and it took away the best of me during the crucial times.

I'm truly sorry. Although sorry is never going to rewind history.

2 failures on my last week. That's 80% damage to my entire time here. Complacency.

From the top of the world to the valley of the deep

You know I started off being really shit hot. One of the cream of my crowd, aced every sortie.

Somewhere along the way I lost that touch, that feeling. That person who is feeling at the top of the world, being superior and always able to take care of others when myself is taken care off.

But my life is at stake. Failing one sortie after another. I'm feeling down and couldn't hold myself up. I'm needing comfort and love for some reason.

Falling shouldn't be an option from now on. 4 more short days only. Fight on!

I will not give up.

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