Saturday 23 October 2010

What keeps me coming back here?

There are tiny moments in life when you just can't seem to comprehend how things happened the way they did. You feel lost and out of resentment, you go around searching aimlessly for a solution.
I rested my thoughts here for almost 7 years and it's time to move.

Cya!


Thursday 21 October 2010

Crap.

Give me an alternative solution to understanding a person. I'm confused.
Although we start out with good intentions but it turns nasty if you weren't providing with the right amount, at the right moment and in the right style.

It's like us experiencing haze, it looks like it but it is never what it was. Couldn't see the far horizons but could only work on your current path, walking towards your destination.

Like catholic faith, where you never get to see god but only heard about them.

I really don't know you at all. I don't understand your actions, your hints or any of your thoughts.

Wind! Please clear my fog.

Monday 11 October 2010

8 days of escape.


It was an abrupt decision when my Mum suddenly told me to pack up and head to Taiwan! Shortly after 2 days, I found my foot off the grounds again and take flight all the way to Taiwan. 8 days with my mummy was an outstanding achievement for me, cause for the past days, the longest consecutive days I've been home was only 2. So then, "finally we managed to catch up". That's how she put it, although I booked out everyday and still manage to send a smile each day.
To the women who loves me most in this whole wide world.

This will be probably be the only 8 days straight period that I'll be spending with you in a long while. The commitment in life is getting greater and so much I must aspire to survive successfully as an adult.

To my dearest mum, these may be the last 8 days we'll be able to spend together like that. The laughter, joy, jokes, gossip, food or shopping, I'll treasure them most.

I love you. I would want to give both dad and you the most in your elderly age, happy times and joyful moments. So I'm going to work my best for these 2 years, get my financial stability and I promise to visit this week once again. =).


Of a special friend

During my trip, i encountered this very special friend. 4 years ago, we met in Hong Kong during an exchange trip. She was my host and I was her guest. What made her such a special friend was because we had a surprising amount of things in common, eventhough we lived so far apart. Our growing up years seemed to be simingly taunted and broken in terms of our academics. She stayed back a year and so did I, bla bla bla..

That was when we started a series of letters, each made up of stories to motivate each another. Small though they may be but it made a difference in me. Although I can bleakly remember what was written in them. Haha.
We both loved outdoor, sports such as basketball, music such as hilllsongs, movies such as inception, interest such as backpacking around the world, ambitions such as helping the poverted in 3rd world countries or believes such as christianity. Practically, we shared the first half our lives encountering similiar things (close to similiar may be?)

"Distance actually doesnt mean anything, it's you that really matters".

When I entered the army, I always questioned myself about my love life. At nights, I lay on my bed thinking about my years ahead when I signed on. "When will I finally meet one?", "is it alright if I only have one girl in my entire life?". Especially when the exposure to girls i extremely limited in the force. Got a little desperate sometimes which made me a little flirty with girls. Frankly, all guys in service are some what like that too, but probably differs in degree of it. Girls! Grab your army guys, they'll willingly submit submissively. Haha.

She made me realise the importance of being myself and that love couldn't be rushed. Love should be pure and simple, made up of pure and unconditional affection for one another. Not those tactics on I how to get a girl interested in you that I've been learning from my coursemates.

She is a single up till now and not been to a single date, mainly because she's been actively engaged with her studies and helping at the NGOs. So why get attached to romance at such an age? To me, love is sometimes boring and such a drag. Live your life to the fullest now, meet more friends, climb the unclimbed peaks, break the world records and go all around the world to see the horizons. =). I'm more interested in that.
Love will drop by one day, god had everything well plan for. He has the perfect plan, one that is unexpectable and impossible to comprehend but one that will be perfect. Not the perfect woman, but the perfect girl just for me.

Be it having only 1 girlfriend or none in my entire life, I know god has his best plans lined up for me :).
Thank you fiona =).

Until our next meet up again!

Wednesday 6 October 2010

"There is no such thing as an ex-fighter pilot.
Once a young man straps on a jet aircraft and climbs into the heavens to do battle,
it sears his psyche forever.

At some point he will hang up his flight suit - eventually they all do -
and in the autumn of his years his eyes may dim and he may be stooped with age.
But ask him about his life and his eyes flash and his back straightens and his hands demonstrate aerial maneuvers and every conversation begins with

"There I was at ... "

and he is young again as he remembers his glory days.
He remembers the days when he sky-danced through the heavens,
when he could press a button and summon the lightning and invoke the thunder,
the days when he was a prince of the earth and a lord of the heavens.
He remembers his glory days and he is young again."

From Boyd by Robert Coram