Lord. I'm confused. Like a lost sheep aimless and not knowing what is right from wrong.
Why are those devils climbing so high, getting so recognized, being so happy and enjoying themselves?
There were moments I asked myself.. "I'm single now, I've the privileged to". "Should I? Should I not?" When honey knocked on your door, who could resist it?
Happy moments had been missing since a long time. My last most joyful feeling was receiving my A level results and thereafter passing my series of flight selections. Ever since then, it's always about biting through things. Their "happiness" moments creates guilt in me, makes me feel uncomfortable the next day. Whether was it alcohol, massage or girls. I don't like it. I kept relating to my past and asked my brain... "Why couldn't it be like the sports? Why can't it be the fastest or best to get the trophy? Why must it be the one who can gel up to the crowned or polish his boots best gets it all? Organization interest is paramount and that's why we are all helm to please our direct superiors but if competition was put into this equation, it gets quite ugly and unhealthy. I want to be recognized for my flying skills, these pair of hands which are capable and the critical thinking I've got. Things that I don't earn... doesn't belonged to me. But this was often deemed as a dumb move by most, they always say.. "if it comes knocking on your door, just take it!"
There were times I swallowed and join in the game, for the sake of my pay grade, for my survival.in the next decade to come and for people's impression on me. Yet there were times I just have to close both my eyes and immerse in the culture cause this is where I belonged and have to prosper in the coming years. It's my life, my career, my future and the fortune that defines my future wife.. kids.. and parents.
The video depicts a story of this promising girl. Having the skills and powerful voice yet not recognised by the society cause of the red tape and the unforgiving nature of the society. I hope I could be like her, sticking to her principles until the day when the right avenue comes by. Just that opportunity don't wait for people, it's for us to grab and make the best out of it - if we want the most out of the best of what we've got.
These girls
They have smooth hands, a sweet smile and a young kindle heart.
Lord forgive them for they don't mean to behave in this way.
Poverty and environment had lead them to lead this shady life.
I asked myself, why do they deserved this?
It's a dignity that they have to live with their entire lives.
Everyone needs a purpose to be recognised,
but must this be bestowed on them?
Heal this world.
If everyone just be less selfish and share all the resources, people will not need to live such a low life.
I just wanna help these people discover that there are so much more to life.
