The boy who was forced to grow up.

I told myself at the start line, before I embark on my career journey that I'm never going to grow up.
That I'll always remain as a little boy all the way until my death bed. Cause I couldn't conjure with responsibilities and could never understand why people like to take on lifetime commitments, until up till at this point in time so many weights are placed on my shoulders.

So many hopes, expectations and eyes of support on me. I'm feeling the heat, from both the upstairs and downstairs. I believe likewise for my coursemates. We only each have 24 hours a day be  we lived as if we had more, probably that's how they trained us to be superhumans.

Beyond time management, beyond capabilities and beyond myself.

No one really understand the level amount of capacity problem I have. And it's hard for me to relate what's happening to everyone else without time. Because only having time spent together do we get to know one another better? Sometimes even mum and dad couldn't understand, probably aging has caused them to be full of themselves.

Why must I cope with the stress from the family, work and still have to manage myself? I only have 24 hours, 2 hands, 1 wallet,  a pair of brains and one mouth to speak.

It's only going to be tough for another year or so. Good times will come soon =).

Press on.

The ups and downs

Sometimes when you tried searching for the answers but they just don't come?

What's the real purpose for me on this Earth?

Each person on born was given a purpose and god gave me a purpose that involves with coping with so much mishaps in life.

The unexpected, crude or sometimes inhumane. But I guess all of those were blessings in disguise? Being able to jump out of my previous academic background, to cope with such a stressful family, meet the demands of everyone around me, having to face my worst econs, getting injured before a very important competition and now.. To find a purpose in flying a craft I was never expecting to.

These series of non-stop up hill and down hill, definitely made my life a roller coaster, a joy ride probably no one on this earth will taste. Blessing I would say :D. A real deep one.

"What's my calling? Why was I even born in this world?". I was asking myself. It seemed like someone have been training me by putting so much obstacles in front of me. One after another, they just kept coming non-stop.

I thought of death cause its the most anyone would have feared. And I told myself that I'll not be afraid when it comes. For I'll die with a purpose.

If one day I have to die to save someone in return, I will. Even for a simple life, because I have nothing to loose..

I want to protect things cause too much pain and hurtful things have been happening. I want to make this world a better place, for you, me and everyone else :)

Cure this painful place that most of us have been trying to put up with.

If only I could lie.

I'm sorry, may be I shouldn't have made that promise.

It’s in living every moment
Like it could be our last
For our hearts are restless till
They rest in Love’s caress
And the moments we remember
They interweave our hearts
Like a tapestry surrounding us,that we forget to touch

It’s why we wake up every morning
It’s why we seek each other’s smile
It’s why we know that it’s all worth it
It’s why we hold on we make the sacrifice

Smile
It’s a Beautiful Life