The thing about working and growing up

You start making friends for the sake of needing to foster closer relationship in order to perform a certain task.

You accept gifts and treats knowing fairly well that they will be asking you for a favor, or needing help from you in the future.

Realizing that there are objectives behind every actions of those around you. Everything comes with a rationale and reasons.

You start to see the selfish side of everyone else.

I miss my childhood life.

what have i done to deserve this?

What have I done to be in such a bad light.
What have I done to deserve losing my soul supporter and dream girl to
a good friend.
What have I done to be called untrustworthy by a really close friend.
Why am I called a narcissist?
Why does he say I make my friend's blood boil?
Why does my closest friends say they are wasting time with me?
Why does he say that I am insensitive?
Why am I always celebrating victory alone?
What have I done to deserve dad being like that?
Why is everyone leaving?
When are friends when you need them most, or they are here only for
the good times?
Why am I accused of being selfish when I was trying to help?
Why am I so jealous of other families.

May be the kindest people always get bullied. May be the evil people
always get what they want. May be Liars always get the girls and
money. May be the truth was never desired. May be people rather lived
in denial.

All I ever wanted in life was to fly and make people's life better and
obviously I made them worst.

What's the point of my existence? To the world, what's the point of my
existence?

What have I done...

It's because you were a close friend that I became so open about it and I was just trying to help. I recognised probably I wasn't helping at all, not once was I positive in the team. From the very beginning till now. We probably was just a college team, nothing more than that...

"it's just that you were never very trustworthy

i only dont tell you things

because you are the absolute worse person to trust

great now go touch your heart and reflect upon that word "sarcasm"

if i ever trust you again, damn me i'll be a fool.

now for a fact, i know you are a narcissist.

ho ho then today is a day you achieve epiphany

because you have no idea what you've done

secondly you have absolutely no idea what kind of a person you are

you don't think before you act

and you cant even read people well

absolutely no emotional quotient whatsoever

dude, i don't think i'm going to waste any more of my time on you

i have better things to do

take care and i wish you the best of luck with your friends

you dont know how much you make their blood boil

well you made it worse with all your assumptions, it's a pity up till now you have no idea

for the record, you were a great friend

ask the canoeists, they'll give you your answer

nothing happened but it isn't the first time you've posted her name on facebook

in the past _ was more than enough

typing out her full name, seriously dude, last straw

you're too insensitive to even understand anything

what in the world

it wasnt the first time alvin quek

and dude you have no idea what i feel

seriously alvin, fuck you and stop being a pathetic piece of shit"

What's next?

You may think achieving a dream may well be rewarding, but when all
your dreams just falls into place in an instant, you are caught in a
dilemma of a virtual standstill asking yourself.. "What's next?".
I dated my dream girl, I got my ambition of becoming a pilot and a
course I wanted the uni. So here I am, asking myself.. What's next for
my life.

Staring at the stars gave me no answers and looking back gave
me no clue about my future ahead. I could only live each day as if
they were brand new.
I know I always want someone to spread love and lost my heart to, but
there's currently no avenue or if not WRONG avenue for me to find one,
this will go on for the next 5 years where I'm trapped in service.

Guess I'll have to cope it myself and learnt more to be independent.
Love can wait :), although I frequently longed to belonged to someone.
And I'll still continue to indulge in this "what's next" question so
if someone could enlighten me :).

and pushed us to our limits

Everything that have happened in these few months is Just A Dream.