Disappointment

I am disappointed at myself for not performing up to the mark at the critical time but the perfect paint is out there waiting for me. Although all the odds are against the ideals but you've been fighting odds since you are born. So this is going to be a piece of cake in comparison.

Don't give up Alvin.

For yourself. For your love ones. For chow chow and the Ferrari dream. That's all I need in my simple dream life.

Feel comfortable and appreciate the changing of patterns and features. Relax and paint the beauty of aviation.

Gambette~!

Is there anybody out there living my life the way I do? Feeling the same way I've been?

Is there anyone out there...

Living my life just like me? Aiming my life purely towards success, pride and hope. Putting myself in a competitive environment where we dance to the music of survival. No love. No smiles. No truth. Lots of wealth, pride and future. As objective as scoring a goal in the game of soccer but work together because we are named "a team" and share a common goal. We play with the rules of a dynamic team, perform and put up a good show but never knowing how each another felt or worn the shoes of the person next to you.

Is there someone out there who sacrificed their freedom, who put away their youthful young adulthood for something they vie for. Whether is it to be successful, powerful, rich or prospective, left your love for sports, music, games or even hanging out with your besties. 

Oh talking about besties, where are you my dear Canoeist. Sometimes I really miss you guys. I miss the companionship of close friends and how we could tell one another's feelings just by the look of the face or the way people reacted. I miss the brother and sisterhood we shared.

If you are the person, you must be a rare breed. If you are not, I envy your life living in happiness and smiles. I've been reading (or stalking) a lovely couple's blog, one of which was from my College. Seeing their smiles made my day. I like seeing people happy. Especially when they are from the bottom of their Hearts. Truth of what they feel. No hiding, no shielding, no politically correct answers.

Is there anybody out there feeling the same way I do? In my shoes and waiting for happiness to come by one day?

My mind is so free, I can be what I want to be. No obstacles too strong. No road too long. In my mind I could do no wrong.