A: There was once I heard good people with steady hands will become good pilots.
B: In your opinion, what's a good pilot?
C: A good pilot? All pilots that contemplate about the meaning of a good pilot.

Hello left leg

Dear Mr Left Leg,

I know these few days have been of chore to you. You have hoped all the way 1 km since right Mr Right Leg injured himself. Hoping all the way back to your bunk, a place where Mr right leg can rest and recuperate. When typically, walking was a job by both leg, you had been climbing up and down stairs, hoping to get the water at the other room, walking a few meters for the toilet and journeyed miles at the no wheel chair hospital.

Now that Mr right leg is not gonna recover very soon, I sympathise with the amount of work you'll have to put in for the weeks to come. Doctor asked me to stay in bed and not moved around but it was impossible. There was work that I had to do.

Read on articles that state that there'll be possibility that the injury might take months to recover. For worse cases... it might lead to permanent disability to manoeuvre the ankle.

It was just a jump, a high leap that I've always done. A simple manoeuvre yet with the wrong opponent.

Please get well soon. I pray for the deepest hopes that it'll get well soon. So I can continue to function and work...

This injury.

It's been long since I've been injured like that. Bed ridden for a few days in an overseas work trip. First time injured overseas without any family or friends. Walking was challenge, getting my drinks and meals from downstairs was worse than running 2.4km.

It led me to seat down and reflect.... how much actually family meant. Those times when I had fractures, there was always people to support me, to bring me surprises and smiles. Now alone overseas with colleagues, it's a totally different world.

Gotta protect my family in future so they do not encounter such an incident like I had these few weeks.

Finding inner Peace

A world of distractions,
A place of greed, power and treachery.
Of performance, rat race and empire.
The body wants more,
But forgotten was that soul needs more.
What's this competitions?
Never ending fight for small achievements,
these ego trying to stack on top of one another?
An eye for an eye made the world go blind.
But only the most powerful and greediest can keep their eyes open.
Why this greed? Why these competitions?
There's got to be a stop,
stopping does not mean weak,
does not mean compromising,
does not signify any form of loosing out.
It simply means staying quo for a greater good.

You're blessed with many gifts.
Special and unique in many ways.
Let go of those who have disturbed inner thoughts.
Of personality who like to pick small meaningless fights.
Keep your head out, look out for the bigger picture.

So many blessings

Thank you for the journey and company you've given me. Feel truly blessed.

This is how it feels like

Being appreciated, loved and thanked.
What more could I have asked.

Your kind towards the poor, you helped the marginalized and motivated the discerned.
I'm not worried of failure cause we'll take the difficulties in life together.

When everyone thought you could never even make it, you took a breath and instead surpassed the best to be number one. Worked and proved to the world wrong.
All by yourself... Even when everyone fell, you stood up by yourself and told the world you'd be the last to give up.

Our first step were short from others but our last stride won us the winning second.
You said success was not about the destination but the journey. Our morales... our values...

Your love for family was enduring and unending.
It have always felt like family when I'm around you.

My limitations and shortcomings, you never once did complained but instead you gave me the arms to discover my virtues.
You loved what I isn't and who I am.

Caring for one another in our best ability, understanding each another's limitations.
How did you understand me so well? It's making me wanting to give you my entire life and virtue.

做人。。。 无论有多艰难, 多痛苦。。。

都要老实,踏实。。

脚踏实地的做人。

Steps forward. March on.

Somethings are meant to remain pure.
To be child like and to be preserved.

That's how we find truth, faith and trust in one another.

Let go of the past encounters, they were just a series of misunderstandings and misfortunes.

A trap that caught and caged me since.
It was a meaningful experience. Thx for dropping by my life. Thank God for letting me meet these good people. For without them, there's no me today. For without those problems, obstacles and hurdles, I wouldn't have been even more wise today.

Start and learn to live, love and breath again. You've got a whole life ahead of you.

So true..

Every woman wants a man who respects her for her values, virtues and ethics. She wants a man who is proud of her strong character and her unique personality. A man who can support her unconditionally and stay connected to her soulfully. A woman who loves you truly will never ask you to buy her expensive gifts or take her to expensive places. She won’t ask for diamonds, rubies or a promise to bring her a world of luxuries. She just wants your love, care and attention. She wants you to spend a lot of quality time with her and appreciate her for all that she does for you out of love and affection. Every woman is unique in her own way and she wants to be the most appealing woman in her man’s life. A woman’s heart is so full of love for the man of her life that she just gives it freely even for the little he does for her. She doesn’t want commitments and promises she just wanted to be loved to the core.

I choose..

I choose to live by choice, not by chance.
To make changes, not excuses
To be motivated not manipulated
To be useful not used
Self esteem over self sympathy
To listen to the inner voice within.

Met a friend

Met a friend who had the same life encounters as me...

Who went to N(A)..
Who excelled and found a new hope in sports..
Who went to jc..
Who decided to work first before going to uni..
Who had to work in an environment of alcohol and lust..
Who had to break values to go with the flow..
And the dream of helping third world children and kids..

Thank you for reinforcing my values and reminding me what I set myself out to do since the beginning.

Watch "Owl City - In Christ Alone (I Stand)" on YouTube

Unless...

“Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot,

Nothing is going to get better. It's not.”

Prayer for the Air force wife.

An Air Force wife has so much to bear,
She's everything at once, no one could compare,
When God made her, he had perfection in mind,
For nowhere on Earth is another of her kind,

She leads a life not many would choose,
For her job is the hardest in the military to do,
She is courageous and strong, one would say made of steel,
But way deep down is a heart that can feel,

She stands by her husband, so proud and so tall,
And waits many nights by the phone for a call,
She's Mommy and Daddy all rolled into one,
She'll never rest easy until her job's done,

She sits all alone and in silence she cries,
Dis I do a good job, is my family all right?
But deep in her heart she knows that it's true,
God is right beside her helping her through.

For good - Wicked

As we walk deeper in..

Problems gets more complicated and combersome.
It seems as if everyone else had an equally tough life.


Problems
Just bottle them up,
Sharing them makes other people's heart broken,
Showing others made it more complicated,
Spoke to the waters about them,
I always complain about these problems during those runs and swim.
I asked them why... WHY THESE PROBLEMS.
Every stroke I took, every step I had,
they told me not to give up
cause each step I took, there's always hope.

Self reflected, finding positive change,
and always going through the process of self discovery,
No body's perfect, we have a piece of us that stay broken.
Continue the pace,
The pain won't be that bad if there's a goal.

Don't be afraid that no one would journey with you when problems gets big,
roads get lonely,
or no one to share how horrible the times were,
cause at the end of the day,
only you and yourself know you've done the right things...
made the right choices..
and staying clear of your conscious.
We all have a soul that reflect our actions.

Don't change for something you are not, it gets painful and really difficult.
You can't be the best of who you are too.
One day you'd be found by the person who treasures you most.
Most for your character, for your values and for your steel.
Stay strong in what you believe, stand up for what you know is right.

Until the day God delivers, get ready to love the person eternally and love with a pure heart once again =).

Goodnights Diary. Test TMR!!! Gambette!

 

Take away all these that's around me.

Take this pride,
this rank,
this pay cheques,
these cash,
this car,
you can take all these away from me cause...
honestly I don't need them.

Just give me my mummy,
My sis...
My loving dad.

Leave alone my will to help others.
Don't blind me from seeing that I can touch lives.
Don't touch my innocence in love.

Although I'll be away from home for a while,
But each time I come back,
I promise to bring good stories and fresh sun shines.

Lord.
Empower me to have the depth to be able to stand loneliness.
To find a purpose in solitude.
Not to fear in lack of company.
For with you, I found my self assurance.
For I know you'd always want to give me the best.

Lead me to believe in good always.

When death comes, I'm not afraid =).
A silent prayer brings me closer to you.
I will do my duty as a soldier, as a protector and as a guardian angel.
To bring smiles to people who are missing their friends and families.

I'll lift them up from danger.
Deliver them safe.
And let their families be at peace.

Amen

You know what is the difference between girls aged: 8, 18, 28, 38, 48, 58, 68?

At 8: You take her to bed and tell her a story.

At 18: You tell her a story and take her to bed.

At 28: You don't need to tell her a story to take her to bed.

At 38: She tells you a story and takes you to bed.

At 48: You tell her a story to avoid going to bed.

At 58: You stay in bed to avoid her story.

At 68: If you take her to bed, that'll be a story.

Diary dearest.

I couldnt tell you how awesome life had been for me in the past few months. Its liked bottled up happiness which had been missing for the past 3 years of my life. Its like stepping out of prison and everything seems so wonderful out here.

Rejuvanted breathes, brighter sights and heart beating with awesomeness.

I found back my original self, i could finally live as the person i always wanted to be. Life is finally in my control for once. No one to abide, no rules to follow and no cultures to practise.

No lust, no greed, just me and the heart i always wished to have and do great deeds.

I hope these days could last longer but they are ending today.

Cause tomorrow gonna be a new set of rules, new set of cultures, new adventures.

This time i will play my cards, play my game well.

Never fall into such vicious mental trap again :).

Freedom was not my choice, but choose the wave that you wish to surf and it will bring you to places.

Ciao.

Tenguyama Ski School

Greetings all hype skiers of Japan.

If you are thinking of making a holiday ski trip down to Hokkaido and is looking to learn ski at a mountain with minimal crowd and cost, you've came to the right answer here in this post. Tenguyama Ski School! Located just 30 minutes away from Otaru town, a convenient bus ride costing ¥210 will bring you directly to the Tenguyama Ski lift. You could enjoy the bird's eye view of Otaru as you ski at Tenguyama, horizons on the Sea of Japan is a breathing taking tranquilizing view to indulge as you ski.

Was a complete newbie to skiing, had never had any prior skiing experience but I could managed skiing from the top of Tenguyama in both the green and red zones within 3 hours.
You wouldn't believe if I told you that I learnt skiing from the World champion skier in 1969. Champion in whole of Japan in 1965 and 1966. His name is Mr Kikuji Takaeshi, now currently 74 but could ski better than any young dude you see on the alpines. More amazing was that I learnt skiing almost completely in Japanese, with my almost negligible knowledge of Japanese, I could understand the handling techniques and foot work taught. His years of experience both in Skiing and Coaching have proven that he was really professional coach even with the barrier of uncomprehending sign language between us. Patient and passionate in the sport, he guided me through the steps and proper procedures in turning, stopping, starting, getting on ski lift and getting off. His technique of shigoru gohen was suffice in building foundation for further manoeuvres.

Below is the breakdown in costing for your reference:
¥12,000 - 2 hr coaching
¥2,500 - Ski wear (Jacket, trousers, gloves and goggles) [Whole day]
¥4,000 - Ski rentals [Whole day]
¥2,800 - Ski pass [4 hours]

There was nothing published on the internet about this school in English hence hope this post can be a convenient guide for all English literate tourist whom might be considering going Tenguyama for their first skiing experience. In my opinion, the Ski rentals and passes at Tenguyama is considered one of the cheapest in Japan and they have challenging steep slopes for advanced skiers, a quiet and getaway place from all the big ski resorts.

If you have any queries on the lessons you can contact Mr Takaeshi at 090-8905-3081. He'll be able to converse minimal English so prepare a translator beside you to stand by :D.

I had a really pleasant experience with Mr Takaeshi and hope you'd enjoy his professional coaching too.

If you have more questions simply post a comment or comment on my tag box, will be more than happy to answer them.

Would the answer still be the same if you knew the real me?

Fortunate or unfortunate?

How would u measure being fortunate or unfortunate?

Fortunate to have met u, unfortunate that it wasn't the right time?
Fortunate to have this job, unfortunate to have this lifestyle?

Unfortunate to spend one more year, fortunate to understand more things in life?
Unfortunate to miss a train, fortunate to met a new friend who helped?
Unfortunate to be the only occupant in a hostel, fortunate that there was a party?
Unfortunate to have a rough start, fortunate to be stronger? 
Unfortunate that we lead a humble life, Fortunate that we can be closer to family?
Unfortunate that our job is demanding, fortunate that our family can have a more comfortable life?

There's a gazillion ways to get there. How we got there matters a little, how we see ourselves getting there makes the difference.

Family

With family comes a sense of belonging, reminds us of why we belong in this world.

It guides us when we are falling, remind us of what we were recognised for ever since we were little. Where warmth truly exist and where love never ends.

No matter how far we venture into our careers, how successful our lives have changed or how different our current values had shaped into the current environments or how much we had explored.
It comes down to 做回自己. Cause its where the true meaning of our lives really are.

This chinese new year.... I found back my roots, reminded what I was always seen to do. What my uncles and aunties, cousins and precious ones wanted me to be. Be a filal son to my family and be with them in times of need, :).

Seeing both of them growing old by day, while their arguements gets more and more childish.  My sis and I laughed each time hearing their analogy getting more and more comical.

This was also the time when we knew we had entered the reversal. Mummy and Daddy its your turn to wait for jie jie and me to return home from work for dinner :). Dont fuss over simple things such as how to wash a cup or how to cook a vege, cause it was just like how sis and I compete over a who to eat a dish first or who could spot our parents back home first :D.

When you fall sick, I'd remember how you had endured me when I was having my 8 bottles of milk every hour in the night, how I cried and cost you guys sleepless nights. When you asked for gift, I'd always remwmbwr the tough times we endured yet both of you still leave the best food for both my sis and I. When you are hospitalised, no matter how long it would be, I'd visit you every night to share the stories of my beautiful day so it cheers up your day, just like how u had brighten me up when I was hospitalised in many occasions.

Dad your my courage, mum you are my kindness and humbleness.
Thank you for raising us up, I am too shy to say this in person but someday I'd thank both of u in person. Let's try to remember these precious times we shared so they are not lost,

Dont worry Ma and Ba, Sis and I will take good care of you de.

I wish you enough..

“I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.”

So much to say, yet nothing is said.

I couldn't rest my thoughts these few days. They kept circling around one issue and every time i settled down alone, I would keep thinking about how it felt.

Feelings are sometimes not something that we can control?
We can't help but feel the way we felt.
It's a chain effect probably.
You'll feel for the person after a while...
How it felt like to receive those words in their shoes.
It pains to remember sad things,
Yet are these things really something to be sad about?
Or are they happy encounters?

When things were blunt and probably too blunt to think twice of the consequences.

Love is blind,
love is childish,
A lot to do with innocence and turning ourselves back to a kid again.

Just one mistake of handling it wrongly.
Coupled with a snow balled problem.

It crashed.
Would it be easier if we let go?

The difference of mindsets,
of background values,
the difference in family's sentiments,
of understanding in one another's family,
and the indulgence of eternal trust in one another.

We would think of it as a wrong chess move,
yet in every game... after losing the king.
It's game over. =(

Is this love really over?

What am I suppose to do? =/

Being with you.

The miracle of meeting you again, as if in a dream amidst time.
Falling like flower blossoms.
We loved, we fought.
We crossed so many barriers together.
Lets be born again, and be with each other. flower again.
Will it last forever the sun above my head.
Will I be able to protect forever. your crying, your laughter, your angry face?
If we'll lose it all, eventually, let's treasure our meeting.
The miracle of that time, that day, will lead to more?
Our love makes us stronger our trust finds a way.
What you left me still remains, a glow in my heart.
I am so happy I met you.
You gave me back my smile.
I embrace my gratitude and move forward.
The miracle of meeting you again, as if in a dream amidst time.
Falling like flower blossoms.
What you left me, the treasure of this moment.
Thats why I promise to live life fully and flower again.

 It's really a sweet game.

Love hurts - Yiruma

Keep smiling...

One wrong defining step

I never imagined that I would hurt someone that I'm deeply in loved with.

A wrong motivation,
With performance pressured environment,
Displaced values for performance,
A lonely journey,
Unjustified company.

Let's move on from here but turn back to the person you once was Alvin =)
Believe in good.
Stand firm in your believes.
It had not shook, you know it.
It might have been displaced but know that the footsteps you've taken are always trying to make things better for everyone else.

When you had to change for the better, change.
When you had to improve to make things better for other or yourself, improve.
Do good to others, not harm.
Whatever background they are from, inspire them.
Do not lead them to lust or desire.
Show them the light that things might be different.

One wrong step.
2 broken hearts.
3 days of tears.
For more days to come of regrets.

Forgive yourself Alvin.
Next time round, do it better ;).
I'll be stronger, better, careful and more tactful in future.

Goodnights Diary.

Guess it's only you and me.... against the world  =).

Love you lots.

Mystery of Changes

Differences

I was lost.
Found by you.

At this special place we met.

You were facing the west while I was facing the east.
The sun rose from the east to the west,
Everyday I would witness sunset
While you witnessed sun rise.

Would we have met if we were both looking at sunrise?
Will there be a day when we could both enjoy the sunset and sunrise together?

Or would it be better to stick to sunrise?

I found my new found hope. The purpose why I'm born into this world but it could only be found during sunset.

Covered the world in shadows. We might both forget about what it's like to be in the day when night falls.
Rest well my dear.

Things might be gone sooner than we know...

Why do you still want to live on?

I came by something really sweet today and thought it would be nice to share it with my diary once again.

I have an instructor, a person with all the power and might, an influential character. A little history about this man, although he always had the power and authority over most people, he was never once mean to any of them. A strong mentor with valor, values and principles. But in life, sometimes we don't get to perfect situation that puts us in the best or most advantageous position. He was often bullied and told to handle the worst jobs but till date.. he performs each of them to his best of abilities. Till date, he is not afraid of workloads coming to him and take each of his assignments with pride.

This is the man who gave up himself at a very crucial moment of his life, took a disadvantage option to live a higher purpose.

He gathered all of us up and told us the story of a new born leaf.
A leaf that had always thirst for an adventure.
Falling from the skies, this leaf is heading towards his first flight after sticking to the tree since birth.
It was heading towards the waters, the very streams he was curious how it felt like to be with the water.
So off he landed in the waters, he went with the current cause everyone was told that the water is rich.
But he never knew what life was like on cool breeze ever again.
How amazing was the mountains heights or the deep caves.
Cause... he was stuck with the waters.

This story was told to us cause after passing out... my instructor want each of us to have a purpose in life.
Like the leaf taking flight, we will taste that life is wonderful at our initial phase. But to bare in mind that during these times, we should actively search for our real purpose in life. Otherwise, we would be like the leaf... 随波逐流. At the end living a meaningless life.

He went on to share with us that his purpose in his life was his kids. And that all of us should have a purpose... like loving a girl, a wife, our parents or God. Purpose came in many forms for different people. And he pointed at me... Especially you.

Haha. He was right. I didn't had a solid purpose unlike my current peers. I'm lost for quite a while and had yet to find myself. I used to have a sparkle in me, something when I thought of ... trigger the urge and desire to perform, something introvert and powerful. Why did I loose it? Was it because my values or roots were shaken ever since I enrolled? Was it because I lost faith cause people took important things away from me and I couldn't forgive or forget? Was it because of these dumb thoughts of hatred or unjust?

May be I should restart. Travel back in days to find that small little purpose that I had always longed for. My childhood. My inspiration.



Still my favourite movie all time. Be with you.