The miracle of meeting you again, as if in a dream amidst time. Falling like flower blossoms. We loved, we fought. We crossed so many barriers together. Lets be born again, and be with each other. flower again. Will it last forever the sun above my head. Will I be able to protect forever. your crying, your laughter, your angry face? If we'll lose it all, eventually, let's treasure our meeting. The miracle of that time, that day, will lead to more? Our love makes us stronger our trust finds a way. What you left me still remains, a glow in my heart. I am so happy I met you. You gave me back my smile. I embrace my gratitude and move forward. The miracle of meeting you again, as if in a dream amidst time. Falling like flower blossoms. What you left me, the treasure of this moment. Thats why I promise to live life fully and flower again.
I never imagined that I would hurt someone that I'm deeply in loved with.
A wrong motivation,
With performance pressured environment,
Displaced values for performance,
A lonely journey,
Unjustified company.
Let's move on from here but turn back to the person you once was Alvin =)
Believe in good.
Stand firm in your believes.
It had not shook, you know it.
It might have been displaced but know that the footsteps you've taken are always trying to make things better for everyone else.
When you had to change for the better, change.
When you had to improve to make things better for other or yourself, improve.
Do good to others, not harm.
Whatever background they are from, inspire them.
Do not lead them to lust or desire.
Show them the light that things might be different.
One wrong step.
2 broken hearts.
3 days of tears.
For more days to come of regrets.
Forgive yourself Alvin.
Next time round, do it better ;).
I'll be stronger, better, careful and more tactful in future.
Goodnights Diary.
Guess it's only you and me.... against the world =).
You were facing the west while I was facing the east.
The sun rose from the east to the west,
Everyday I would witness sunset
While you witnessed sun rise.
Would we have met if we were both looking at sunrise?
Will there be a day when we could both enjoy the sunset and sunrise together?
Or would it be better to stick to sunrise?
I found my new found hope. The purpose why I'm born into this world but it could only be found during sunset.
Covered the world in shadows. We might both forget about what it's like to be in the day when night falls.
Rest well my dear.
I came by something really sweet today and thought it would be nice to share it with my diary once again.
I have an instructor, a person with all the power and might, an influential character. A little history about this man, although he always had the power and authority over most people, he was never once mean to any of them. A strong mentor with valor, values and principles. But in life, sometimes we don't get to perfect situation that puts us in the best or most advantageous position. He was often bullied and told to handle the worst jobs but till date.. he performs each of them to his best of abilities. Till date, he is not afraid of workloads coming to him and take each of his assignments with pride.
This is the man who gave up himself at a very crucial moment of his life, took a disadvantage option to live a higher purpose.
He gathered all of us up and told us the story of a new born leaf.
A leaf that had always thirst for an adventure.
Falling from the skies, this leaf is heading towards his first flight after sticking to the tree since birth.
It was heading towards the waters, the very streams he was curious how it felt like to be with the water.
So off he landed in the waters, he went with the current cause everyone was told that the water is rich.
But he never knew what life was like on cool breeze ever again.
How amazing was the mountains heights or the deep caves.
Cause... he was stuck with the waters.
This story was told to us cause after passing out... my instructor want each of us to have a purpose in life.
Like the leaf taking flight, we will taste that life is wonderful at our initial phase. But to bare in mind that during these times, we should actively search for our real purpose in life. Otherwise, we would be like the leaf... 随波逐流. At the end living a meaningless life.
He went on to share with us that his purpose in his life was his kids. And that all of us should have a purpose... like loving a girl, a wife, our parents or God. Purpose came in many forms for different people. And he pointed at me... Especially you.
Haha. He was right. I didn't had a solid purpose unlike my current peers. I'm lost for quite a while and had yet to find myself. I used to have a sparkle in me, something when I thought of ... trigger the urge and desire to perform, something introvert and powerful. Why did I loose it? Was it because my values or roots were shaken ever since I enrolled? Was it because I lost faith cause people took important things away from me and I couldn't forgive or forget? Was it because of these dumb thoughts of hatred or unjust?
May be I should restart. Travel back in days to find that small little purpose that I had always longed for. My childhood. My inspiration.
