A friend in need is a friend indeed

I lost a very good childhood friend in the last few months.
Probably due to my insensitivity,
Due to my ignorance,
Due to my impatience,
Due to my pride then...
But now that i think of it,
It would have been better if i swallowed my pride
And accept whatever was in front of me then...
Stand by that person...
Things would turned out a little different than today.
I'm just feeling very lousy losing a really important friend like you..
I pray that you are well and will be successful at yr chosen path.
I know you wont be visiting here but if you do..
Just want you to know that you have been a really valuable friend,
a sincere and earnest friend that guided me till this very day.
All these years, I haven't had the chance to thank you
for being my motivation and spiritual support.
Even when I had... I missed it out.

Guess u didnt want to remain contactable..
But if one day you need support,
I'll be willing to return the support :).

Always.

Love is a strange and beautiful thing,
It spans time and space, distance is no object to love.
You will wait forever for the one you love,
Travel wherever you need to be with them.
When you are in the arms of the one you love,
That love can make a moment last a lifetime,
Yet make a lifetime seem no more than a moment.
When love is distant it grows strong,
When it returns it flowers.
People crave it, strive for it, fight for it, and die for it,
And when they find it, they know they are complete.
For in the arms of the one we love is wholeness,
Belief, completeness, passion, and security.
The one we love is someone for whom we would do anything,
And never ask for anything in return.
It produces a love of all that person is and will ever be,
Regardless of what that may mean to me.
Love knows that when you are away,
That you are still loved, cherished, thought after, and missed
By the one you love,
And they know that you love them back.
That is Love.

 - Nicolas Blackmore -

Chips

Casinos can actually teach life long lessons.

Being in the professional world or the upper class living is like a casino game.
You only have that amount of chips to play with.
Some use it for kindness, some use it to buy food.
Most of them chose to play their hands to make the sum grow.
When you are piled with many chips, everyone welcomes you at their table.
When you run out of chips, no one would really care about you, even your transport back home would be a problem.

In each of our lives, we only have one handful of chips. Use them wisely.

Be careful of the words we speak, the body language we show and the impressions we give to others. It counts =].

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Rejuvenation

They told me directly, my chances are slim.

 D-day in 4 days and it's a fate I have to face.

Success comes with hardwork and stress, I've put in almost my last glass of motivation, fight the odds until the finishing line, put a smiled at the mistakes I've made and cried while I remained smiling at my instructors. This life I have is only one shot. 22 years old. I've wasted a year at school and now probably another year at the force. Feel so shameful. Never getting things right and successful.

If next Monday/Tuesday I don't make it. I just want to tell the world that I've tried my best and there are things that I just can't overcome. The environment didn't wanted me and wasn't in my favour. Coming so far... I just wanna thank you all for those whom have supported me all the way thus far until this date.
Really sorry for disappointing you guys. For my initial selection group, I'm sincerely sorry that none of us managed to pass out as a full fledged Pilot. For my parents, sorry for making you guys missed me so much as most of the times I'm away. For my friends, I'm sorry that you can't see your brother getting his wings.

It's time for me to head out there and find a future that really belongs to me. Applied for a few scholarship and hopefully they get through in time.

Lord, I'll follow the footstep that you pathed for me. I've no greed but give me wisdom and will to carry on the duty you entrusted to me.

Day 1 - Pre review day

Went for a series of interview.
And they told me not to fall into the trap of letting people think that im a unsafe pilot.
3 review im "awarded".
They told me not to give them any excuse to chop but also that they are severely having a overflow of manpower issue.

Chances are not high but i told myself... That I've been through 2 and a half years of gruesome drilling. How painful will 2 more short months of it be?

Take it in my stride and go. My fate will be made known earliest by next Monday.

First sortie tmr. Be safe.

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Distance or time couldnt seperate us.

Watch ""A Thousand Miles" - Vanessa Carlton (Alex Goot + Boyce Avenue Cover)" on YouTube

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Prayer

Oh lord. I do not wish or hope but I'll take whatever you entrust or give me. Whatever the out come will be, I know you chose my path for me.

It's not them or me, forgive them. They're just humans.

Lord. I'm confused. Like a lost sheep aimless and not knowing what is right from wrong.

Why are those devils climbing so high, getting so recognized, being so happy and enjoying themselves?

There were moments I asked myself.. "I'm single now, I've the privileged to". "Should I? Should I not?" When honey knocked on your door, who could resist it?

Happy moments had been missing since a long time. My last most joyful feeling was receiving my A level results and thereafter passing my series of flight selections. Ever since then, it's always about biting through things. Their "happiness" moments creates guilt in me, makes me feel uncomfortable the next day. Whether was it alcohol, massage or girls. I don't like it. I kept relating to my past and asked my brain... "Why couldn't it be like the sports? Why can't it be the fastest or best to get the trophy? Why must it be the one who can gel up to the crowned or polish his boots best gets it all? Organization interest is paramount and that's why we are all helm to please our direct superiors but if competition was put into this equation, it gets quite ugly and unhealthy. I want to be recognized for my flying skills, these pair of hands which are capable and the critical thinking I've got. Things that I don't earn... doesn't belonged to me. But this was often deemed as a dumb move by most, they always say.. "if it comes knocking on your door, just take it!"

There were times I swallowed and join in the game, for the sake of my pay grade, for my survival.in the next decade to come and for people's impression on me. Yet there were times I just have to close both my eyes and immerse in the culture cause this is where I belonged and have to prosper in the coming years. It's my life, my career, my future and the fortune that defines my future wife.. kids.. and parents.

The video depicts a story of this promising girl. Having the skills and powerful voice yet not recognised by the society cause of the red tape and the unforgiving nature of the society. I hope I could be like her, sticking to her principles until the day when the right avenue comes by. Just that opportunity don't wait for people, it's for us to grab and make the best out of it - if we want the most out of the best of what we've got.

These girls
They have smooth hands, a sweet smile and a young kindle heart.
Lord forgive them for they don't mean to behave in this way.
Poverty and environment had lead them to lead this shady life.
I asked myself, why do they deserved this?
It's a dignity that they have to live with their entire lives.
Everyone needs a purpose to be recognised,
but must this be bestowed on them?
Heal this world.

If everyone just be less selfish and share all the resources, people will not need to live such a low life.

I just wanna help these people discover that there are so much more to life.

Con-fi-dence

Creatures of emotions we are, bound to feelings and humanity.

Just that in a society, these things should be left aside cause this place is a competitive world.
In this method will the best talents be selected and the most appropriate people to be put up.

They told me, I have the substance ... just lacking the extra edge of confidence.

The con-fi-dence that will see me through my life and keep me alive as a pilot.

Don't grow up.

Ester asked "why people are sad?"

"That’s simple," says the old man.

"They are the prisoners of their personal history. Everyone believes that the main aim in life is to follow a plan. They never ask if that plan is theirs or if it was created by another person. They accumulate experiences, memories, things, other people's ideas, and it is more than they can possibly cope with. And that is why they forget their dreams.”

― Paulo Coelho, The Zahir