8G

It's nerve wrecking, heart pounding, numb and all that is felt are
tiny little micro bites. It sends your face into the future, some
looked like we are in our 30s, some 50s and some in our graves. It
swells and hurts, like the feeling of drowning and ends you up with a
whole body of measles. Every breathe you take is a struggle to stay
alive.

Sitting on your brim, all is seen is a single tunnel of light, within
the already suffocating you is a small sparkle of hope to regain
conscious, wanting to feel that perfect vision you always had. It
slowly creeps till total darkness and it's uncontrollable, till the
point you fall from conscious or you release the button.

All those attentions on instruments and spatial awareness only centred
at one vision : to fight this G monster.

But when I see those darkness, I remembered you. That vision of you
that fired me up, giving me a reason to stand up again. To stand up
against all these odds. No matter if it's all backstabbers here, it
doesn't matter if I'm weak or at my limits, it doesn't matter if I'm
seeing darkness. Seeing you lights up the world. It's an unspoken and
unexplained truth. But although you died, that thought has always been
a motivation. I can't deny it, love is part of me. It's every part of
me when I'm at my limits.

Thank you and rest well :). I'll continue discovering love, the best
part of it or the bad part of it, I'll walk with it :).

G measles.

Imagine it in large scale. Measles. That gross. Get off meeeeee.

My fight

Fight that monster, that G monsta. 9G, fight it.

There's always a us in trust, lie in believe, end in friends, over in lover, if in life.

your kindness, i will not forget

A thought flashed through my head and it happened 2 years ago when I
went Japan. When I was at Disneysea, a kawaii japanese girl dropped
her "fastpass ticket" -3 of them- and I happened to pick them up. They
were running towards one of the ride station and one of them dropped
it. I gave chase until the station and finally called out to her.
I handed over the ticket and she gave a very sincere and loud "thank
youuu" in her very own japanese assent. We exchanged few looks while
we walked away but that was the most we could do cause I wasn't bold
enough to ask for anything.

That kindness and smile had been kept in my heart until today, it
flashed cross me as I was writting my essay. Weird I know. If the
world have Japan's deep culture of understanding and sincerity, the
world would have been a better place to live in :).
I want to live in japan! No matter how badly it have been hit. Not for
the place but for the people and culture they have.

I will be there for you.

One day, I'll be there for you guys. Just wait when I get my wings, I'll lift your away from worries and fear. This is my destiny, I wanna help people.

Just wait. I'm coming.

Allow and accept

2 failed papers. A dislocated shoulder. 3x weekend confinement. Dog eating dog world.

Not always what it seems to be...

You see. These friendship are what I really wished to keep. But things aren't as simple as it seemed to be. When you have the ability to read the true thoughts of people, what they will do next, what they really want out of you, things don't get so simple.

But I really wish to be simple and be this kid I am whenever I am off working hours, live life simple. A true heart towards true and pure friends. I still want to be there for each and everyone who was here for me on this day.

Thank you =).

When you need someone close to talk to..

Crap Shit Idoit Chicken Backside.

I just failed meteorology. 2 more of this shit and I'm out of here.
Help =(.

There's a life your missing if you stay you'll never get it.

There's a life your missing if you stay you'll never get it.

What's a man doing when he's turning to the prime of his life at 21? In front of a pile of notes, in an all guy environment, with so much that's required of him. Huge responsibility, so much commitment, so much big talks about our characters. How we tackle minute things, how much small little things reflects ourselves in the future.

Where's the adrenaline rush that I once felt? That I loved riding on. That feeling of seeing the worlds prettiest girl right in front of your eyes. So gorgeous, you have been thinking of her night and day. All those thoughts of wanting to spend hapoy times with her. Generating a Dozen ways you can ask for her number. That amazing girl that turns you on when exams are coming, race are starting or when you are on the brink of death. Just at the end of all those trauma, all you wish to tell her is "I love you" or confess to her your feeling. I confess that I use to like she males but what's this gay tendency happening now and then. help.

Now running is just another feeling like walking. Exams are just like reading another book.
Booking out is just like going home everyday.

The ONLY thought I fell in love with is... flying, but I'm also a human who needs affection, love and attention.

Sent from my iPod

Revelation

Its a moment of unspoken words,

reflections.
self consciousness.

When truth prevails, all the world's ambiguity uncloak itself.
If you were made of water crystals, a rainbow smile across the skies.
But if you were just dust particles, a dark shadow cast over the streets.

I cancels out procrastination, excuses and all other form mask.
It's truth for itself.